Friday, April 15, 2011

I hope

I hope I never forget what it's like to want a family so badly. To wish to hold a newborn in my arms and know that they are mine.
I hope I never forget the feeling of failure when it comes to feeling like that is what you are in the "reproductive" world.
I hope I never forget the feeling of loss, when you think you are so close, but yet so far.
I hope I never forget the feeling of sadness, when it comes to thinking that just maybe you will always be a family of 2.
I hope I remember that their are lots of women and men out there ... longing to expand their families. Just like we were, not that long ago.

Remember to be sensitive, to care, to have compassion and empathy.

Respect hurtful words like:  "oh at least you get to sleep in", "you can jump in the car and just go", "at least you don't have midnight feedings", "with the cost of diapers, you can take a vacation instead", etc, etc

When you are in a position that you would LOVE to have sleepless nights, dirty diapers, and no vacations. You want to console even the colicky baby and have the midnight feedings. You would give up all vacations, just to hold a little one in your arms and know that special moment.

I hope I never forget and always remember ... for I am truly blessed.

Just a note that portions of this blog may be graphic. This has been a long journey, and keeping a detailed record is important to us. So if you are queasy, there may be parts you need to skip over. Also, any decisions regarding our children, the pregnancy, parenting ideas, are something that we consider carefully. If we decide to share them on the blog, please be cautious of criticism. We fully intend to research ideas thoroughly that we are thinking about.
We are excited to share this wonderful journey and welcome you along for the ride!!

Thanks! :)